“This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.” (Psalm 118:24 KJV)
I woke up at 5:00 a.m., and I felt like God was trying to tell me something. I was half asleep so I couldn’t really hear Him well. I started to fall back asleep, and then I remembered an entry on Beppo’s blog titled, “Letting God Wake You Up During the Night“.
I instantly became alert (not wanting to miss a message from God). I said, “What is it that you are trying to tell me?”
Mark 6:36 came into my mind. I didn’t even know if it was a real verse. I also got the words, “you have made worldly decisions”. I promised myself I would remember these things, and I fell back asleep.
When I woke up later, I did remember, and I ran (with scissors in my hand..muhaha) to my bible to see if Mark 6:36 really existed. Of course it did. The verse didn’t make sense, so I did what I usually do, and I looked at the verse before it and after it.
36 Send the crowds away to go into the country and villages round about and buy themselves something to eat.
37 But He replied to them, Give them something to eat yourselves. And they said to Him, Shall we go and buy 200 denarii [about forty dollars] worth of bread and give it to them to eat?
This is when the disciples fed 5,000 men with five loaves of bread and two fish. I was still confused, even though I was very excited that this was a real verse, and not something I made up. I pondered it more, and this afternoon, it all came together.
First, I’ll let you know that I have been wanting to do some kind of mission work, and what always comes to my mind is ministering on the street, and you guessed it…feeding the homeless.
However, with my own limited resources right now, I haven’t been able to commit to anything except trying to survive myself.
I love that they come to Jesus and basically say, “hey, we’re tired. Send these people away so they can go buy themselves something to eat.” Then Jesus (in my own words) says, “No. We’re going to keep them here, and YOU ARE going to feed them!”
Then the disciples wondered how they could feed all the men with the limited amount of food they had.
When I paired this story with the words, “you have made worldly decisions”, I realized God was telling me that His power is greater than mine. I have been trusting in what the world has taught me, instead of trusting the Lord. Of course we all say that God’s power is greater than ours, but how many people are truly believing it?
How many of us listen to what the world says is possible, and not what God says is possible?