I think I’m finally starting to understand why I have been out of work for the past three months. In three months, I have learned more spiritually, than what most people have learned in a lifetime. I have dedicated everyday to researching the scriptures, praying, fasting, growing in my relationship with Jesus, and unraveling the Truth. There have been many tribulations, but through it all God has been faithful, and He has provided every need for me. This has probably been the most difficult season of my life, but it has also been the most fruitful. I feel like I have been in a cocoon, and kept away from the world. Sheltered, and secluded, and God has been my only company. When I am released back into the world, the world will not see the old me, for the old has passed away. Out of this cocoon, something more beautiful than even I could have imagined will emerge.

Three months ago, when everyone insisted that I get a job, I told them, “I can put in all the applications I want, but if God doesn’t want me somewhere nothing will happen.”

So I put in applications everywhere, while trying to get my business going. Nothing happened. In three months, not one person was interested in me. I wasn’t looking for anything great either; just some extra money to help me. I couldn’t even get hired at a Walmart!

God has been doing an incredible work, and it’s a work that needed to be done. I have been in training mode to be a warrior for the Kingdom of God. I have been taught the ways of the Spirit, by the Grace of God, and now graduation day approaches. The training wheels are being taken off. The cocoon is starting to crack open, and the work that God was doing is being completed.

I’m not going to go into details at this time, but there is a career in the works now that will change my life. It will be a blessing, and also a challenge. Financially, I will be set, but that is not the most important thing. The most important thing is that the lessons God has taught me must not be forgotten. These hard times have not been for nothing, and I’m thankful everyday for the person I am now. The person that God led me to be.

I’ll be going back into the world as a new creature very soon. I’d like to believe that life is going to be perfect when I land that “dream job”, but I know better. Circumstances do not dictate our happiness or quality of life. I have an inner peace given to me by Jesus Christ, and He is the only constant thing I have. While I consider this opportunity an enormous blessing, and I’m looking forward to having a stable income, I now know that my stability comes from the Lord.

I’m writing this because someday I’ll look back on it, and I’ll remember how blessed I am to be where I’m at.