Church was awesome on Sunday! In fact, the whole day was awesome, and the presence of the Lord was upon me continuously!
My cousins are visiting from Pennsylvania this week, and they went with my mother and me to church. My eleven year-old cousin, Jaiden, sat down beside me and all of sudden she started crying. I put my arm around her, and I started to cry. It was almost as if God was allowing me to feel what she was going through. The worship began, and the music was really ministering to me. I noticed Jaiden crying the whole time, and I felt like God was saying to have her come over to my place by herself after church. I could sense a lot of pain in this poor girl’s heart, and I knew God wanted to heal it!
After the music stopped, there was a skit that had me in tears. It was a boxing match between “fear” and “faith”. It was funny because they had peppered the congregation with people to cheer on both contestants, and some even had signs that said “we love fear”. The boxing match froze, and out came a lady on the stage that was stressing over her bills, and feeling like she was going to become homeless. Cue the tears! The boxing match continued with “faith” taking a beating until he was finally knocked down. On the count of 8, the scene froze and went back to the struggling woman. She took out her Bible and started praising God, and saying that she was going to trust Him. The scene went back to the match, and “faith” got up and defeated “fear”. This is the story of my life! I never thought a 10 minute skit could be so profound, and touch my heart in this way.
So anyway, after church I had Jaiden over. I told her that sometimes God lets me feel what people are going through so I can relate to them, and she started crying. I started crying too, and we both couldn’t stop for awhile. It was actually kind of comical, and at one point I said, “look at us, we are both a crying mess.” She is so special to me though, and she always has been. To see her so withdrawn and so dead looking really concerned me. She is only eleven and she looked like she had been so beaten down by life already (she kind of has, but I don’t wish to share those things right now). I knew that she needed something to bring her back to life, and I knew exactly what the something was!
I started to talk to her about Jesus. I asked her some simple questions, to see if she really understood everything about salvation. She has been going to church since she was born, but that didn’t mean she knew who Jesus was, why He died, and what that meant for us. Besides, what eleven year-old doesn’t question what their parents tell them? Heck, I was casting spells when I was eleven! The devil begins his work when we are still in the womb!
I started to explain the importance of the Holy Spirit, and of the spiritual gifts. Of course, the church that she was going to never explained any of this. The devil has done a fine job of keeping Christians powerless! After it seemed like she understood her salvation and the purpose of the Holy Spirit, I asked her if she was ready to surrender to the Holy Spirit. I could feel an anointing to pray with her, and I figured, “it’s now or never with this little one.” So I had her stand up and I prayed for her to know the Holy Spirit more and for her to be led by the Holy Spirit more. She told me that when her eyes were closed she saw white. She said she had never seen white like that when her eyes were closed, and that the white started to overcome the darkness. Afterwards, she looked so different. She looked full of life again. The sadness and pain appeared to be gone. I asked her how she felt and she said, “I feel stronger”. Bless her heart, and praise the Lord! This is the beginning of her true spiritual life, and she is still so young. I remembered when I asked God to be filled with His Spirit, and how it changed my life. I told her that she can ask God the same thing anytime she feels like she needs more of God, and He will give it to her. Please pray that God will continue to help her mature in her walk with Him. How great is He to reach her at such an age? I really believe that God is raising up a generation that is going to stand up in battle against all that is opposed to His Kingdom!
That same night I got together with my spiritual sisters, Tricia and Lisa, and we had a blow out prayer time. The power of God filled the room, and we were completely drunk with His Spirit.
Like I said, it was an amazing day!



My dear brother,
I’m so overjoyed to see you move and operate in the Spirit. My mom and I were moved by the intimacy in your church something that’s lacking in many churches today.
I remember times when I have felt deep anguish within my soul, it would be this agonizing pain. Other times I’d feel utterly forsaken and deeply abandoned for no reason. I realized that God allowed me to have a glimpses of how it felt to be rejected and forsaken…to be lost without Him. Other times while agonizing prophetic words of agony would pour out of my mouth. Those words would have gravity and deep hurt in the voice of the Spirit. I was reminded that I had asked the Lord to let me feel how He felt and He was doing just that…pouring out His hurt and agony into my heart . It blessed by heart to know that He trusted me with it.
Thank you once again, dear Justin. You are so precious! =)
Sidharth
Comment Submitted: January 21st, 2008 at 8:59 pm
And also my love and a hugs to Jaiden! Tell her it comes all the way from India! =)
Love to you too bro!
Sidharth
Comment Submitted: January 21st, 2008 at 9:04 pm